I decided to open my blog once again.

Deleted those post not meant for people to ready and here you are reading..

This year my holidays is filled with meetings, duties and lots of crappy stuffs.

Thank god i got the Hainan trip to help me relax or i would be worse now.

This year is also an eye opener for me, i ..........

No one can understand me right now, the guiltiness, anger, sadness, emptiness all mixture of emotions make me want to burst, jump down from a high building, just to end my life...

When people ask me why am i always busying myself with things usually i would just smile and walk away sometimes i would just answer the standard answer "I love doing it" but no one knows i am doing it to get myself busy to avoid me thinking of negative things which makes me devastated each time a pinch of it is revealed to me. Imagine a pinch of that painful memory revealed to em and i cant bear it , how can i bear the whole of it?

Lots of things happen throughout this year. So i would want to thank my friends who listen to my weal and woes and advise me on what to do..

Thank you Nicole, Eileen and Jeanne :)

Apart from that i have 2 friends who are always there for me, always have the time to go out with me or should i say the only friends i go out with???

Thanks Kevin and Claire, stay strong yeah?

Thats all for now.