Well today is filled with disappointments... Practically failed 5 subjects... how to catch up 5 subjects in like 31 days... haish....

school is killing me.. How good it is if we can only focus on one subject...

I may seem rather strong to you guys.. but the fact is i am not.. i am a weak person.. Deep down inseide me i am weeping.. my heart is hurting.. to see my friends quarreling and seem like not affected was nothing but an act... everyone look up to me, oh he is the mediator.. he is the responsible guy.. He is the guy with influence and everyone trust him.. like come on, i dont even dare to use those trust, i am scared of betraying and hurting people.. I am just someone weak.. The old Hisyam has been perished i guess.. I just want my old self back at all cost.. Where did all those determination go? the never say die attitude?? the motivation? the stay strong, smile more and always guy?? I dont joke much now.. i just dont know where that guy go.. now is just a guy who drags his feet to and from school like a lifeless body.... haish.. life.....