I seriously don't know what to do.. Study so hard.. Fail.. Don't study also fail.. Then what is the use of studying.. i am trying m y best.. listening in class, avoiding falling asleep.. After school study.. Go home bath, rest then study again... Whats wrong.. I screwed that paper just because i thought carbon is a metal... No wonder no one care about my advices because i am a failure.. a big failure... failed in making the board a better place.. failed in studies... failed in studies.. My biggest failure is ruining 2 people....


I had a really bad dream.. A dream that i fell from level 9... Then my life ended there.. Sometimes how i wish it could be that easy, so everyone would be happy without me around.. So i can ed all this nonsense,... but god forbids committing suicide..

Today is a fucking bad day.. a really unlucky day... haish... Hisyam what has become of you??