Tuesday, July 20, 2010
To a Special Junior:
Every morning i would wake up and check my phone for messages..
If i see it is yours i would quickly read it, in case you needed me and i am not there..
But when i see you in school, i have the sense of betrayed and unappreciated..
Never once have we sit down and talk without bringing in work stuffs into the conversation..
Though sometimes i may be cold towards you, just ignore me,
Because i just had flashbacks of the past..
You have changed for the better now.. I know you have..
I would like to thank you for the experience you gave me..
All these valuables values like Patience, Resilience and Uprightness would be in me forever
Thanks a lot for the memory..
To another Special Junior
Everyday when i see you, i see a dead man walking...
I see you walking aimlessly..
My heart hurts for you
But you would not tell me about it...
All you say is its in the past and i don't wish to rake it up..
Well i know who i am.. I mean nothing to you.. so i can blame you for that..
All i ask from you is to stay strong k?
Sometimes i ask myself.. Is what i do for other worth it?? But what can i ask from them, like the saying goes; don't expect anything in return for you help.. I think i am such a failures.. Please dont get a wrong idea, this is not about the board.. this is about friendships...
Sometimes i wander the whole school ALONE... Lots of people tell me, "Wah, Hisyam, so many people know you ah.." Well whats the point of people knowing me but no one to be with.. I have plenty of friends and some very good friends but for best friend, i doubt so.. No one know my favourite colour o my favourite food or my hobby..? Sometimes when i feel like talking to someone, i look in front they are feeling down or concentrating on studies.. to the left they are busy talking.. to the right she is forever mugging.. then i start messaging.. but the reply is like coming from hell.. So much for lots of people know me.. sometimes i just wish to turn the clock back to when i was in sec 1 and refuse that nomination for prefect...
